So apparently there are a lot of people from my college who think I'm masungit. This is the most ridiculous thing that I've ever heard - I'm the nicest person that I know! I say please and thank you, I greet former classmates, I say hi to my teachers. I really don't know where all this tsismis is coming from. Is it my face? Because this is my regular face (see photo below).
Now that I'm looking at it, I do appear to be in a perennial state of annoyance but don't judge books by their covers! I may not have a solid understanding of the complexities of social interactions but if you take time to get to know me, I swear I'm the NICEST, AWESOMEST person.
And also, I have the best of sense of humor. Bazinga!
October 29, 2013
October 21, 2013
I was looking through my journal and I found a lot of quotes from books I have read this year. Here are some of my favorites:
"Men have had every advantage of us in telling their own story. Education has been theirs in so much higher a degree; the pen has been in their hands. I will not allow books to prove anything." - Anne Elliot
"I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it eight years and a half years ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant ..." - Frederick Wentworth
ON THE ROAD
"I said once, 'What's going to happen to us when we die?' and he said, 'When you die you're just dead, that's all.'"
"What is the feeling when you're driving away from people and they reced on the plain till you see their specks dispersing? - it's the too-huge world valuing us and it's good-by. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies."
"... and the hole thing was hopeless, besides which Lucille would never understand me because I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion."
"We were all thinking we'd never see one another again and we didn't care."
"And yet - and yet, I've never felt better and finer and happier with the world and to see lovely children playing in the sun and I am so glad to see you, my fine wonderful Sal, and I know, I know everything will be all right."
"Oh a girl like that scares me," I said. "I'd give up everything and throw myself on her mercy and if she didn't want me I'd just as simply go and throw myself off the edge of the world."
Dean stopped dead in his tracks at the sight of her. A knife stabbed him from the darkness of the night. "Man, I lover her, oh, love her ..." We had to follow her around for a long time. She finally went across the highway to make a phone call in a motel booth and Dean pretended to be looking through pages of the directory but was really all wound tight watching her. I tried to open up a conversation with the lovey-doll's friends but they paid no attention to us. Gomez arrived in a rattly truck and took the girls off. Dean stood in the road, clutching his breast, "Oh man, I almost died..."
"Offer them what they secretly want and they of course immediately become panic-stricken."
"In my madness I was actually in love with her for the few hours that it all lasted; it was the same unmistakable ache and stab across the mind, the same sighs, the same pain, and above all the same reluctance and fear to approach."
HOUSE OF MIRTH
"And when she made a tour of inspection in her own mind there were certain closed doors she did not open."
George Bernard Shaw
"But you have no idea how frightfully interesting it is to take a human being and change her into a quite different human being by creating a new speech for her. It's filling up the deepest gulf that separates class from class and soul from soul." - Higgins
"... the difference between a lady and a flower girl is not how she behaves, but how she's treated." - Liza
"Her contempt for me was so strong, that it became infectious, and I caught it."
"That was a memorable day to me, for it made great changes in me. But it is the same with any life. Imagine one selected day struck out of it, and think how different its course would have been. Pause you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day."
"Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before - more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle."
P.S. I got the book covers from the Internet because I'm lazy to take photos of my own books. I got the same covers as my books with the exception of House of Mirth.
October 14, 2013
Hi, blog! I missed you. A lot has happened since the last time I wrote in here. Since I am not in the mood to write, here are pictures instead.
Baguio with Educ friends. Details of the trip are written here. Fun experience. Baguio is my absolute favorite place so of course it was fun. Visited Ben Cab museum again and had plenty of time for ukay-ukay so all in all, it was a great trip.
Siyam, Siyam by Norberto Carating taken at Ben Cab museum
I have no pictures for this one but I have a job now! Yup after 19 years of pioneering the kain tulog lifestyle, I am finally doing something meaningful and productive in my life. And the best part is, I get paid for it! Feeling like a legitimate adult now that I'm working. I just love saying, "No, I can't hang out. I have to go to work" or "You know this thing happened at work ..." yea I know I'm annoying ha ha.
Hmm what else? I survived a dengue scare. Apples, gatorade, paracetamol, malunggay, lots of water, and bed rest - basically everything you need to feel instantly better. I'm trying to get back to my "healthy" lifestyle now. I don't want to get sick ever again! So I'm exercising again, trying to eat right, getting enough sleep. I have to be an athlete if I want to survive juggling acads, work, and my org.
There's also this little thing that's happening with this one person but I rather not talk about it in here. It's too risky. But I'll leave this Bjork song here because it perfectly describes how I'm currently feeling.
Visited Manila Art with friends yesterday
I'm just glad that I am able to do things again, you know. This year has been difficult and I spent a lot of time wallowing in depression and negativity and helplessness. It just feels really good to be able to do stuff. I'm going out, meeting new people, doing new things, experiencing new things ... I'm content. Things will not get better, I know that now but I am better. I'm stronger and wiser and I'm more capable of dealing with shit. And I feel excited. I'm excited for what the future has in store for me and at the same time, I am content with what I have at the moment.